Dear blog i know its been many months since i posted anything! :(  I know i should be here more often! but till about last 5 weeks of my life nothing interesting happened at all! So now that it is after the 5 weeks oh boy i got allot to say! Life took a wrong turn for me and i am learning how to be more me and learning how i can take care of me and my son :) Yes i am left here to fight for us! Its been hard but also so many wonderful things happened to me! Now i just need to figure out which way i want to take them! There has been so many bad things happening but then there is this one good thing going on in my life and my gut says go for it but my brain says wait slow down! What should i do?? It is up to me at this point i guess and i know what i want to do................. but i need that little push from that one other so i know were we stand!

All my life i do good by others , stood by others but now i know its my time to be good to me and stand by me :)I have so many wonderful friends and family who have been helping me for more then few weeks, and i do love the help but now my gut says i have t go higher in life!!!! So i think i will take that leap and just do it! and see were i end up! 

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